The 5 Stages...

Do they still talk about the 5 stages of Grief anymore?

IBM is having their second round of layoffs this year (this quarter, even!). After 14 years of working for Atria/PureAtria/Rational/IBM Rational, I have, as the English say, been "made redundant."

Anyone want a ClearCase/UCM expert?

Of the five companies that I've had on this job, IBM has been the least fun (PureAtria wasn't that much fun either, but it didn't last long). We had earlier layoffs, and I thought I was done for in the January layoff, so I guess I'm not exactly unprepared.

Yesterday I was depressed. Hard to do my work, hard to face looking for a job, and after L went to sleep, too tired to do anything I was supposed to do. My cohort of layoffs (there are 10 of us in my building) met to share our resources, and that wore me out.

This morning, driving to the office, as I wrote, furious. Coming into the office, it is an act of defiance -- make everyone uncomfortable, as they know I only have 3 weeks left. It's also an act of survival; keep a rhythm of coming into the office, so that I have a struck to "work" within.

I had a good call with the customer -- it's a special program to connect Engineers with customers, and I like having the link. I like taking care of "my" customer -- as long as it doesn't take over my job of building and testing code.

I actually like my job this year. I'd like to rant about the unfairness of IBM or the Economy or off-shoring or something ...

but what's the point.

I have work to do.

Furious

Today I am furious. Keyboard-pounding furious. It's really annoying to have to do this typing thing, one letter at a time...

All I want to do is my job, damnit.

Finally and at last, and, well, now doing my job is an act of defiance.

Got to go take a meeting with an important customer....